Today I feel really weird.
I woke up when it was already time for lunch. Severely hung over. It had been quite a long time since I last drank. I had almost forgotten how shitty you can feel the day after. The weather didn't help. It was rainy and then cloudy and then sunny. And my stomach was giving me trouble.
I just deleted the post I wrote one hour ago. I'm very instinctive, I know. I'd just acted out of stupidity.
I called it Punching because the previous was called like this as well. Yes, today I feel like punching somebody in the face, digging him into the ground and kicking his sorry ass. That someone has a face and a name obviously...
It was a post full of rage and anger and disrespect.
Just because somebody has been disrespectful to me, it doesn't mean I can't be smarter than that, I said to myself. And I deleted it.
Last night I had a quite illuminating conversation. It was cruel, brief, harsh and stinging. Today I realized how stupid and self-depracating I can be sometimes. I had given myself too much credit for. V. scary thought.
I was talked into believing something I don't believe in, something that doesn't reflect the way I live my life and the way I love and have respect for the people I'm close to. Terrible mistake. Probably because I was drunk (I know it's not an excuse, but...).
I should be so grateful, though. I learned something very important.
First that I must be less judgemental but more respectful and openminded.
Second that i should start live my life the way I claim is right, not say one thing and then act differently.
Third that lust can be a very evil creature sometimes.
Finally a warning to all people out there, and I shall quote this from the previous unpublished post:
There are hundreds of jerks around. They're everywhere. Jerkness doesn't discriminate: women (correction - sluts), men (pervs), gay or straight. So beware!
I woke up when it was already time for lunch. Severely hung over. It had been quite a long time since I last drank. I had almost forgotten how shitty you can feel the day after. The weather didn't help. It was rainy and then cloudy and then sunny. And my stomach was giving me trouble.
I just deleted the post I wrote one hour ago. I'm very instinctive, I know. I'd just acted out of stupidity.
I called it Punching because the previous was called like this as well. Yes, today I feel like punching somebody in the face, digging him into the ground and kicking his sorry ass. That someone has a face and a name obviously...
It was a post full of rage and anger and disrespect.
Just because somebody has been disrespectful to me, it doesn't mean I can't be smarter than that, I said to myself. And I deleted it.
Last night I had a quite illuminating conversation. It was cruel, brief, harsh and stinging. Today I realized how stupid and self-depracating I can be sometimes. I had given myself too much credit for. V. scary thought.
I was talked into believing something I don't believe in, something that doesn't reflect the way I live my life and the way I love and have respect for the people I'm close to. Terrible mistake. Probably because I was drunk (I know it's not an excuse, but...).
I should be so grateful, though. I learned something very important.
First that I must be less judgemental but more respectful and openminded.
Second that i should start live my life the way I claim is right, not say one thing and then act differently.
Third that lust can be a very evil creature sometimes.
Finally a warning to all people out there, and I shall quote this from the previous unpublished post:
There are hundreds of jerks around. They're everywhere. Jerkness doesn't discriminate: women (correction - sluts), men (pervs), gay or straight. So beware!
I just hope that in case the source of inspiration to this post reads these few lines, he won't be mad but will understand that we are very different indiciduals. End of the story.
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