I just found myself crying in the shower like a baby.
It's my 22nd birthday, would you believe it?
Last night the guys left here in the guesthouse have prepared a dinner for me and a yummy cake (despite the fact that it was made by the Finns, it was scrmptious!). Then some people came to the party but not many showed up probably 'cos there were other three parties - or simply because they can't stand my presence, ahahah! -.
Anyway, we all moved to some Germans' place and it got quickly really crowded. I met almost everybody. It was a sort of farewell/birthday party. I had a great time.
I really love these guys.
Later we - correction - I went to the gay ball. Let's just say it was ok. (If the Alina's sexblog's idea goes through, last night will require a very long post... :p ).
And today still half hungover we sunbathed for a while then moved our butts to the swimming pool close to the university. It's been lovely.
Now it's time to say goodbye. I don't know exactly how I feel. I'm happy and I wanna laugh. I'm sad and I wanna cry. It's certainly a birthday I won't easily forget.
Maria and BlueKaisa just said goodbye in front of me in this very moment.
It's weird cos... I don't know. I'm gonna have so many good memories of this time here and I should be thankful and cheerful. Instead I'm crying like a baby.
Christ, this is all so fuckin' emo.
I just have to think of this not as the epilogue but as a new "phase", a new period of my life. Jesus, it's not the end of the world.
Sonja's left. I went to Jonas and Leif's place. I did what I had to. Smile. I didn't see Leif. Maybe tomorrow morning, who knows. I'd be sorry if I weren't to see him before I leave.
(I still have to pack. Ops.)
I don't feel like writing. Let's just get it over with for fuck's sake.
But wouldn't it be nice if everybody were able to say goodbye smiling and hugging and laughing and yeah!???
It's my 22nd birthday, would you believe it?
Last night the guys left here in the guesthouse have prepared a dinner for me and a yummy cake (despite the fact that it was made by the Finns, it was scrmptious!). Then some people came to the party but not many showed up probably 'cos there were other three parties - or simply because they can't stand my presence, ahahah! -.
Anyway, we all moved to some Germans' place and it got quickly really crowded. I met almost everybody. It was a sort of farewell/birthday party. I had a great time.
I really love these guys.
Later we - correction - I went to the gay ball. Let's just say it was ok. (If the Alina's sexblog's idea goes through, last night will require a very long post... :p ).
And today still half hungover we sunbathed for a while then moved our butts to the swimming pool close to the university. It's been lovely.
Now it's time to say goodbye. I don't know exactly how I feel. I'm happy and I wanna laugh. I'm sad and I wanna cry. It's certainly a birthday I won't easily forget.
Maria and BlueKaisa just said goodbye in front of me in this very moment.
It's weird cos... I don't know. I'm gonna have so many good memories of this time here and I should be thankful and cheerful. Instead I'm crying like a baby.
Christ, this is all so fuckin' emo.
I just have to think of this not as the epilogue but as a new "phase", a new period of my life. Jesus, it's not the end of the world.
Sonja's left. I went to Jonas and Leif's place. I did what I had to. Smile. I didn't see Leif. Maybe tomorrow morning, who knows. I'd be sorry if I weren't to see him before I leave.
(I still have to pack. Ops.)
I don't feel like writing. Let's just get it over with for fuck's sake.
But wouldn't it be nice if everybody were able to say goodbye smiling and hugging and laughing and yeah!???
****Fuck I hate crying****
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