Sometimes it's so nice to out with some old friend and talk, catch up and swap imformation. It enriches you and gives a lot to think about, calmly reflect upon and clears your vision about things. Last night M. and I went out for a drink and a bite to eat in a v. weird place, v. cozy though. We hadn't seen each other in a couple of weeks, or maybe something more than that, and both had fresh news and considerations to give one another. After we go out many times it happens that I suddenly find the solution to a problem, realize something important or make substantial decisions. Last night was no exception. We were speaking of butterflies. T
here are surely different kinds of them. They come from different places of our human mind. And somehow you can't really compare these diverse species cos they're never the same. However, we both know what it feels like and how you sense when they're the right type. This morning it dawned on me that I'm attached to that very feeling, that I still hold on to it, I'm still lingering on it regardless of the person that gave me that spark. Although he's long gone - more than one year now -, I still refer to him, to what he made me feel, every time I meet someone new. And it also occurred to me that it isn't healthy nor sensible to act like this. People are different and what they make you feel is not the same. It might change with time. It's dynamic. It grows into each other and might create bonds. This doesn't happen over time. And above all, you must let it happen. You've got to untie and unloose rather than to loosen up, and avoid self-limiting your emotional flows.
It all sounds like these are very good resolutions.
here are surely different kinds of them. They come from different places of our human mind. And somehow you can't really compare these diverse species cos they're never the same. However, we both know what it feels like and how you sense when they're the right type. This morning it dawned on me that I'm attached to that very feeling, that I still hold on to it, I'm still lingering on it regardless of the person that gave me that spark. Although he's long gone - more than one year now -, I still refer to him, to what he made me feel, every time I meet someone new. And it also occurred to me that it isn't healthy nor sensible to act like this. People are different and what they make you feel is not the same. It might change with time. It's dynamic. It grows into each other and might create bonds. This doesn't happen over time. And above all, you must let it happen. You've got to untie and unloose rather than to loosen up, and avoid self-limiting your emotional flows.It all sounds like these are very good resolutions.
Why am I so scared then?
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