Oh. Lord. I just woke up. I had this weirdly real dream. No no no, it was over real. Hyper real. It was like it was really happening and somehow I could make decisions and act in total awareness. I dreamt of the lazyass. Yes, I did. And it felt pretty damn good, am not ashamed to write it.
I won't go into details of what I dreamt of cos it's unnecessary, to say the least. It was not sex though. Not only. He behaved like I always wanted him to be. Meaning without mentioning his boyfriend every five seconds,
without taking off after we'd done it, hugging and being kind also in public. I remember everything vividly.
I'm in haze right now. Lost for words. I feel like a total loser. It's not like when you dream of someone you know you'll never have cos they are... I don't know, superstars or... straight. It was about someone I slept with, I already know what he is like, how good or bad he is, everything. And this feels incredibly awkward. It had been a while since I last thought about him.
Btw, he's leaving Iceland today. I miss him. I never thought I'd say that but I do.
I won't go into details of what I dreamt of cos it's unnecessary, to say the least. It was not sex though. Not only. He behaved like I always wanted him to be. Meaning without mentioning his boyfriend every five seconds,
without taking off after we'd done it, hugging and being kind also in public. I remember everything vividly.I'm in haze right now. Lost for words. I feel like a total loser. It's not like when you dream of someone you know you'll never have cos they are... I don't know, superstars or... straight. It was about someone I slept with, I already know what he is like, how good or bad he is, everything. And this feels incredibly awkward. It had been a while since I last thought about him.
Btw, he's leaving Iceland today. I miss him. I never thought I'd say that but I do.
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