When I woke up this morning I found a bittersweet message on my half-broken mobile. Very tender but it tore my heart apart.
I now know I was being very selfish when I bought the ticket and flew here. I'd thought it through and asked for opinions before leaving obviously. I had also considered all the problems that I was gonna face, the fact that I was gonna be all by myself and all. I was very well aware of what I was moving towards. I simply thought I was ready for the challenge and to set off.
However long I reflected, I missed one important point. I overlooked everyone else's possible problems with me leaving. My brain simply did not process that bit. I ignored the mere fact someone might have missed me, needed me, and wanted me to share important steps with them.
I don't regret coming here but I must admit that only now, after a few months, I have finally come to realize what being away from your family and friends really means not only for me but for those I left. And this sort of epiphany sucks.
Since I have been in a very positive mood lately, I wanna try and look at the bright side of it. Once again it just shows that with somebody it never began and it will never end cos it's unbreakable. It is. It doesn't really matter which hemisphere of the world you are walking on cos not even such distance can break this bond. And this feels so good and makes me so happy and grateful and blessed and lucky.
I miss you, too.
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mi sento un filino chiamata in causa... sto intervento sul blog per lo meno ha avuto il potere di far straripare tutte (o almeno spero, e che cazzo..) le lacrime trattenute dal 9 settembre ad ora, per la stupida presunzione di non volersi fermare a pensare e di continuare a dire "sei forte abbastanza, continua a guardare avanti".. ma l'altra sera ho VOLUTO fare i conti con la realtà. nutrire sentimenti cosi' forti per una persona é un privilegio che non mi é capitato spesso nella vita, ed é cio' che fa dei ricordi passati e delle comunicazioni presenti qualcosa di impagabile, speciale e irrinunciabile. e soprattutto fa delle mia e della tua vita qualcosa di prezioso.
quello che di piu' importante avevo da dirti te l'ho lasciato inciso e direi che come al solito sono stata piuttosto lungimirante :)
L.
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