It's been a long while since the last time, hasn't it?
I've felt the urge to sit down and post something more than once over the past few months. And I could actually take a few minutes here to recount everything that has happened in this first half of 2008.
I don't really feel like it. I don't think it's the purpose of this blog anymore.
Funny thing, I was talking to someone recently and I pointed out how your personal blog should actually be something for yourself, that you could share with intimate people only so that you can really be your true self without fear of being judged by or offend anyone with your words and thoughts. Shortly after I realized that I should give that same piece of advice to myself first.
I've felt the urge to sit down and post something more than once over the past few months. And I could actually take a few minutes here to recount everything that has happened in this first half of 2008.
I don't really feel like it. I don't think it's the purpose of this blog anymore.
Funny thing, I was talking to someone recently and I pointed out how your personal blog should actually be something for yourself, that you could share with intimate people only so that you can really be your true self without fear of being judged by or offend anyone with your words and thoughts. Shortly after I realized that I should give that same piece of advice to myself first.
See, the thing is that this blog was never completely a simple report of the events of my "life", and neither was a place to spill my thoughts. It was liquidly in between.
Lately I've felt the itch to write more of situations and opinions rather than episodes. Reflect and elaborate rather than narrate.
A while ago I willingly started to make an effort to avoid thinking too seriously about and - more generally and accurately - over-analysing things. It was not helpful simply because I applied this rule to departments of my life that need not be taken heed of.
I've now come to the conclusion that there may be a point of balance between obsessing about things and healthily reflecting upon them and fleshing them out. I hope I can reach this "point of balance" here, in this non-existing-yet-existing place we call blog.
I've been giving myself Luca-time in the shape of yoga mostly but I believe that, although that is beneficial to me in an indescribable way, I still need to have a moment to myself, to release thoughts and words that I reckon are worth being expressed. I've had some inspiring conversations and experiences lately that my heart and head are in dire need to communicate and give voice to. Just now I could name a few of these episodes that I could spend hours pounding out here. My last conversation with my cousin tonight, that funny sensation in the stomach when you first kiss that someone who just feels right, visiting Bali and practicing yoga there, the four months that I might have to spend outside Australia next year, the books that I've been reading and how they have hushed me and gave me so much to think about...
This list could go on and on but I've decided to voice such things every now and again, leaving everyone outside the room, gagging everyone that might argue with what I write and react to it (either positively or negatively). I think it's the right time to experiment that.
Lately I've felt the itch to write more of situations and opinions rather than episodes. Reflect and elaborate rather than narrate.
A while ago I willingly started to make an effort to avoid thinking too seriously about and - more generally and accurately - over-analysing things. It was not helpful simply because I applied this rule to departments of my life that need not be taken heed of.
I've now come to the conclusion that there may be a point of balance between obsessing about things and healthily reflecting upon them and fleshing them out. I hope I can reach this "point of balance" here, in this non-existing-yet-existing place we call blog.
I've been giving myself Luca-time in the shape of yoga mostly but I believe that, although that is beneficial to me in an indescribable way, I still need to have a moment to myself, to release thoughts and words that I reckon are worth being expressed. I've had some inspiring conversations and experiences lately that my heart and head are in dire need to communicate and give voice to. Just now I could name a few of these episodes that I could spend hours pounding out here. My last conversation with my cousin tonight, that funny sensation in the stomach when you first kiss that someone who just feels right, visiting Bali and practicing yoga there, the four months that I might have to spend outside Australia next year, the books that I've been reading and how they have hushed me and gave me so much to think about...
This list could go on and on but I've decided to voice such things every now and again, leaving everyone outside the room, gagging everyone that might argue with what I write and react to it (either positively or negatively). I think it's the right time to experiment that.
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